Part 42
Lisa had told Susanne that Stella had broken her leg and how, because Sophia had emailed her. Since she
had gotten to know Stella better during her visit at Christmas, she was curious how she was, but she didn't
have her phone number, so she called Carla.
They chat for a while about this and that. Susanne told Carla that she was looking forward to the visit of Sophia
this summer and asked about Carla's vacation plans.
"Well, we were planning to go to Italy. I wanted to show Stella and the boys the area where my mother comes from,
but because this is a mountainous area, I fear that we should abandon those plans. Because remaining in the house
for three weeks is not really fun. I can drive around by car, but for the guys that's no vacation. So we will have
to make other plans"
"Yeah, that sucks. And children in that age can be very annoying if they are not enjoying themselves"
"Tell me about it. They starting their puberty, but you know everything about that"
"You know. I was just thinking, why don't you just come along with Sophia. Brigitte and I have a guesthouse
with two bedrooms. We used to rent this, when the restaurant is not so profitable yet, but that is no longer
necessary. You can use it. Lisa would love to have the boys out and about, so you can spend some time
together. What do you think?"
"I do not know. Susanne, if that is a good idea?"
"Sure it is. Come"
"I do not know. I must first consult with Stella and Sophia, of course. Moreover, I do not have the impression
that Brigitte and Lisa already know?"
"Yes, they already know and Sophia thinks it a good idea"
"What? Sophia already knows this"
"Oh, uh, yeah, I think I've already discussed it with her"
"Susanne. I need to end this call. Stella needs me. Goodbye"
"Yes. Goodbye, let me know if you're coming"
"Yes. Goodbye"
Carla sat amazed at her desk. "What the hell was that? I have a, in my opinion, nice conversation,
and than this proposal which has been extensively discussed. Why should I want to spend my vacation
with my ex? Sophia, we need to talk. We really need to talk" Carla thought.
She got up and went to the apartment. Stella sat in the living room with the boys playing a computer game,
and they were enjoying themselves so much that they do not even saw that Carla came in. She walked
to the kitchen, grabbed a bottle of water and walked back to the living room. They still didn't notice her standing
in the living room. She stood looking at them and saw how much they enjoyed it. She did not want to disturb
them and walked into the hallway again,
"Carla, where are you going?" She heard Stella ask. She stuck her head inside, smiled at Stella and said,
"Sophia"
She walked to the studio and saw that Sophia was inside studying. She went inside,
"Sophia?"
"Mom!"
"Sophia, we need to talk'
"What is it? You're so serious. Is something wrong?"
Carla opened the bottle and took a sip of water. Looked Sophia in her eyes seriously, and took another sip.
"Mom, you make me nervous. What is it?"
"I have just spoken Susanne"
"Oh. How was she?"
"Sophia, please, you know very well. Why did you not tell me about your plans for this vacation?"
"Uh, what do you mean?"
"Oh come on. Susanne said you have discussed it"
"Yeah, uh, I thought it would be a good idea"
"Sophia, why would I want to spend my vacation with Susanne?"
"I, uh, Mom why are you like this?"
"Sophia, how and with whom I go on holiday, is no concern of Susanne. I do not think you should discuss it
with her. Why have you proposed this?"
Sophia saw that Carla was furious, but restrained herself. She was not sure how to begin. Whatever
she would say, she suspected that Carla would explode, or perhaps even run away.
"Sophia?"
"Mom, I do not know how to start"
Carla raised her eyebrows. "At the beginning, perhaps?"
"That's the problem"
"Sophia, what's going on?" Carla had no idea where this would go.
"Mom, please sit down?"
Carla was now a bit restless and looked for a place to sit. Only Sophia's temporary bed was available,
so she went there and sat down.
"Mom. Since I have more contact with Susanne, I started thinking about what happened back then.
Because I get to know Susanne better now, I understand less and less. Every time I try to clarify what
went wrong at that time, I notice that both of you conceal me something. I can not ask Dad anymore.
I can only ask you two, but I feel that you don't want to tell me what happened. It seems like you just do
not trust me. When I saw you together at Christmas I noticed nothing of a friction between you, but I did
notices that there are matters unspoken"
"Sophia, please not now"
"Not now! You mean never"
"That's not true"
"Well, it is true. Whenever I try to find out about that time, you block. It was your desire to have a child
and you have not even managed to stay together until I was born"
"Sophia, you're going too far" and Carla stood up.
"No, I do not. I think I am entitled to a statement"
"And then you just make you own plans of me spending my vacation with Susanne. Sophia you are going too far"
Carla became even more furious, but that was because she began to feel very uncomfortable. With her statements
Sophia put a finger on the sore spot.
"No, I do not think I go too far. I think you finally have to be honest with me"
Sophia began to shout again because Carla avoided her question.
"Sophia, if you can not talk normal and I'm leaving"
"Then leave, because you will not answer anyway"
"Sophia, please"
"Go. Please leave"
Sophia was so upset that Carla hesitated what to do.
"Go away!"
Carla walked into the hallway. As she didn't close the door behind her, Stella had heard the argument.
She had sent the boys to their room to bring back the game, and rolled her wheelchair to the hallway.
She was therefore waiting in the hallway. Carla looked at her and walked past her to the apartment. Because
Stella wasn't so fast with the wheelchair yet, she also met Sophia, who left the studio. Sophia looked at Stella, and
doubted whether she would walk past her or not.
"Sophia. I have heard a portion of your argument. I can not help, this is really a matter between you and Carla,
but I am there if you need me"
Sophia looked at Stella, first still a bit mad, but her eyes softened. She smiled gently and said,
"I know"
"Where you going?"
"Away from here. I need to have distance"
"Do not do reckless things, baby"
"Do not worry. I'm going to let off steam in No Limits" and gave Stella a kiss and walked away.
Stella sighed deeply went into the apartment again. Carla sat on the couch and stared ahead. Stella rolled to her.
"Carla. I have heard a large part of your argument. I am there for you both, but you should solve this problem with
Sophia by yourself. What she requires from you, I can not give her. You'll have to do that, whenever you want.
I do think it is time to give clarity to Sophia. She is right when she says, that you block if anyone asks questions
about that period in your life"
Carla said nothing. Stella heard the staff arrive with dinner. The boys came back.
"Carla, the food is coming. What do you want?"
"We're going to eat" Carla said.
Stella saw the cool and callous countess appear that she used to despise. While eating there dinner nothing
seemed wrong. During the meal Carla was the cool Countess.
It promised to be a nice evening.
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_________________ Our live begins to end the day we become silent about things that matter.
Martin Luther King
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